Anxiety is a F*#!@? ...
Back in 2015, a couple of years after the birth of my eldest, I stumbled across what was then a new blog on Facebook. My initial reaction of "Oh Gawd, not another perfect Mummy blog" was soon thrown in the bin. Since then, I have followed Totes and her dedicated running blog. Why? because it's a refreshingly honest portrayal of family life. Scroll forwards 5 years, and, just in the nick of time, up pops a picture of Totes brandishing the book in the picture ... so I ordered it. Why? Well, given that I've had a combination of Postnatal depression and Postnatal anxiety after both my pregnancies, giving birth in a global pandemic, 24 days into the UK's national lockdown wasn't exactly ideal timing. The lockdown didn't trigger the anxiety, it's likely that would have happened anyway, but, the circumstances surrounding the birth this time heightened all the anxieties that would likely have surfaced, albeit probably to a lesser extent. ...